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I don't even know what to say about real life right now. I guess should admit I'm going through a rough time, but every time I have a good day I want to go, "Nope, everything's fine now! Nothing's gonna go wrong again." Because fuck you, pattern recognition. I'm ignoring you.

It's nothing so dramatic, anyway. I've just been in a bad place in my head. I guess I just want to say something because I'm trying to get better. Like, the permanent kind of better, if that's possible. Because I've been coming and going from that place for half my life now, and that's more than enough.

But hey, fandom's also been with me almost that long! Ever since I discovered Ronin Warriors is the best thing ever and ohwow there's more of it on the internet! So it might be crazy, but I want my writing here to be part of the process. I want to start picking up the pieces I feel like I've dropped or broken here too. If that makes any sense.

I'm going to be trying to post the things that should have been finished but somehow never were. Chapters of the patiently waiting WIPs (trying for the first three sections on my WIP post, basically down to the "stalled" part of the list.). The prompts from December 2011. The 10_whores and 30_dogpile challenges (at least enough chapters to get my plot, dangit! After that it's just fluffy gravy). And a couple other things that should have been posted, yet never were.

So let me start with one of the things from the 2011 prompts. Zebra/Komatsu for

rice_kracker

Title: The Sound of his Heart
Prompt: Sense of hearing
Pairing: Zebra/Komatsu
Warnings: Introspective Zebra, I guess? I'll try to make him more violently tsundere next time.
Words: 1460
Summary: Komatsu's voice was the first part of him that Zebra knew. He doesn't know why, but he wants to fill his ears with Komatsu.

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Current Mood: discontent

Well, that was a lot faster this time around. Mostly because I did the hard editing-type-stuff when I was uploading to YF. I think I have everything up. Everything I posted to LJ is there. Everything I posted to my old site should be there. I can't vouch for comment-fic but I couldn't before (think I got the best of it, anyway!) Not sure I have the same things in the ficlet collections, since YF is gone.

But yeah, 250 and some change later, I think that's a complete collection. I do not want to do that again.

I also found an annoying number of things that are finished (or nearly finished) and never got posted. I just went through everything 9 months ago! >.< Apparently I need to go through my fic writing folder every 6-12 months! Some of them are huge and need editing, so for now here are two short enough to edit before I collapse.

Marks for a Memory
Fandom: Bleach
Pairing: Grimmjow/Orihime
Warnings: none? (post-sex)
Words: 200
Summary: Orihime isn't surprised to find little marks scattered over her body, but she never expected to mark Grimmjow.
Written a while ago for slr2moons, but I added to a bit. I hope you still like?

Between a Rock and a Camera
Fandom: Yugioh
Pairing: Keith/Bones, hint of Keith/Honda
Warnings: none
Words: 250
Summary: Set in Duelist Kingdom. Bones collects footage of their opponents for Keith, but doesn't get what he expected in return.
I think I wrote this when RK wanted some Bandit Keith/Honda, but it ended up being mostly about Bones.

Current Mood: *flops*

In keeping with the trend, while uploading I find more stuff I never posted! This has been done for at least 6 months, yet I never posted it. Sorry again, internet.

Title: Getting Off Track, take 4
Pairing: Roppongi/Ryougoku
Warnings: Off-screen death
Words: 960
Summary: Ryougoku gets a nasty shock, and Roppongi will do what little he can to make things better.

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First news: I'm in the process of uploading all my fic to AO3. Because I'm just getting kind of fed up with the whole thing and at least it will let me back-date things! This is going to sound odd and narcissistic: but if you have an AO3 account, please don't subscribe to me yet. I'm trying to get the whole mess uploaded over spring break and I would feel really, really bad spamming anyone with hundreds of emails (and... yeah, not even kidding. I'm guessing I'm somewhere over 200 uploads left to go.) I'll put an announcement when I'm done (I just started 2007 now, so it'll be a while. though at least now I'm in the area of stuff that doesn't make me squirm with shame.)

I'm also uploading a selection of my favorites to ff.net, so sorry for the spam there too. ^^;

On the new fic front! Here's a new part of The Longest Night!

It's about here that I run into a really huge problem with posting as I finish each scene. >.< Specifically, Hope forgives Snow WAY too fast at the beginning. When it was just that one part it was fine, because I'd never have gotten to it otherwise, but now I realize that sub-plot should have gone along for a while before being resolved. First because it would better mirror the game plot, but more importantly because it just feels like there's this blank area where there should be a character arc and there's nothing because I went and resolved it. But of course I can't go back and fix it because I already posted the first part. Shit.

Although since Nana-chan is likely the only one reading this: Do you mind if I rewrite parts of it? Argh... But at the same time I'm not supposed to be agonizing over this. It's an experiment! I should just write it!

Anyway, got along a little in the plot, such as it is. Stopping there because I'm pretty sure the next thing I have to do is bring in Lightning and Sazh (and hair!chocobo!) but so help me I don't know what I'm doing with them.

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Current Mood: productive

If you haven't seen the KyoAni thing with the swimming boys, here's the context:

(It's only 30 seconds. Reading the fic would take longer.)

They don't even have names. So, obviously: nicknames! I actually wondered if anyone would be able to tell who was who from them. I think I blew my fangirl Japanese tokens for the past five years on this fic. :P
Sempai = polite way to address upperclassman
Niko = sound effect of a smile
Ganbare = 'go for it' or 'do your best,' basically.
Shotacon = someone attracted to young boys (though more commonly used to describe a genre of manga about such) I blame fandom for this one.
Genki = energetic, happy (often a super-cute main female character type in shoujo manga...) This one was my friend slr2moons's idea, which I thought was perfect!
Since Aka not only means red (noun), but could be aka-chan (baby) my brain keeps insisting there's some backstory there.
Shut up, brain.

Also I kinda ship Cutie/Stoic. Not because of actual interaction, just because I was working on the Max/Kai fic right before/after watching, so... *headkeys* Again: Shut up, brain.

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Yet again, it took me way too long to figure out what I needed to tweak to make this work (I had the rough draft of this done first out of the four! Why did it take so long to polish?). I'm pretty happy with how it came out in the end.

Translation note: The drink from Sunny’s full course is called Charis Dragon Scale Shurui (a general word for an alcoholic beverage), which I chose to translate as “liquor” here. Because calling it “juice” is ridiculous. (As to why it’s being served in a sake decanter if it’s not technically sake? Because I thought that was the most beautiful option, of course.)

Title: Chef's Special 3/4
Pairing: Sunny/Komatsu
Warnings: Lots of fun with hair-fondling! Yays?
Words: 3400
Summary: After inviting Komatsu out for a special night, Sunny finally makes a very important proposal.

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I have a longer plotty fic in the works for these two, but my practice attempts at writing them turned out good enough to share. It's always fun writing video game fic and trying to fit in some hints of the mechanics.

I always get this vibe from Kross like he wants Raguna to take him home and brush him. I mean, he gives you the pet brush and tells you how to tame monsters, and then he keeps waxing poetic about how he wants to be a monster. Conclusion: Kross totally wants Raguna to brush him and give him cuddles. :P Too bad that's not what happens in this fic at all...

Title: Tame
Pairing: Kross/Raguna
Warnings: maybe spoilers (does it count as spoilers if it's just speculation that I haven't confirmed yet?), some hurt/comfort
Words: 1560
Summary: Raguna wants to know why Kross would want to be a monster. Kross shows him.

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Current Mood: cheerful

Posted this on the kinkmeme a while ago and forgot to post it here. >.< Oops and sorry...

My RotG surge now has other fandoms peeking in around the edges (particularly Beyblade and Rune Factory: Frontier at the moment), so while more fic is most definitely coming I'll try not to be a one-fandom writer in February. Probably another surge of fic once I get my hands on the movie, though.

The only other thing I have to say is that I'm stupidly happy I got this to 1000 words exactly.

Title: An Image of Frost
Warnings: none
Pairing: hint of Bunny/Jack
Words: 1000
Summary: Bunny enjoys sketching new patterns in his free time, but lately one subject is getting much more attention than he would like to admit.

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Maybe I should get an icon for this fandom if I'm gonna write so much for it. ^^;

Anyway, still rather distracted by the kinkmeme! I have another fic for it in progress but I figured I should go ahead and post the one I finished. The prompt for this was that each of the Guardians had to give up one of their senses to gain what is basically immortality.

Title: Tastes of Ice
Warnings: none
Words: 1450
Summary: Jack thinks he's the only one missing something, until the other Guardians tell him what they've given up.

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Fic for this fandom multiplies so much faster than I can keep up, but I keep trying to read it all! So much good fic! (So much good gen and angst and family fic! Whoo!)

Oh, and this is all from the kinkmeme so far.

EDIT: Okay, I finally read through the dozen new fics since my last sweep and had to add another one. I'll probably also be collecting stuff from ff.net to rec at http://ffnet-goodfic.livejournal.com/ (and I still need to post fic of my own at some point this week. Busy, busy)

( Fic of many flavors! )

Current Mood: cheerful

I have been just a bit batty about the Rise of the Guardians movie since I first saw it, so fic must happen, obviously!

This is kind of a prologue to a longer fic I have in the works. (In fact, I'm going to go ahead and merge the fics as I post them to ff.net.) I went and wrote kind of an epilogue already, so now I really have to go and write all the in-between parts!

This takes place close after the battle with Pitch at the end of the movie. I couldn’t find any official note on ages or birthdays, so I’m going with Jack being fifteen or sixteen, Jamie being eight in the movie and Sophie being three and a half.

Title: Eight Going on Eighteen 1/?
Characters: Jack Frost main
Warnings: none
Words: 3500
Summary: Jack doesn't know how to react to the welcome the other Guardians give him. Luckily it's not yet too warm for him to visit his first believer.

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Something I keep meaning to mention here: Your Fanfiction, where I just finished transferring all of my fic a few months ago, seems to have died. I can't find it. I can't even find anything indicating what has happened. It's been this way for a while at this point and it seems pretty certain it's not coming back.

At this point I think my main option is just putting all the old stuff in matching entries here and on Dreamwidth (http://stariceling.dreamwidth.org/). At least then I can back-date all the stuff to where it goes, and hope that only one set will be lost at a time. (On the off chance someone is looking for a fic that is unavailable, just mention here and I'll put that up first. Even if it's something like "wasn't there that one Jojo fic with the thing?" because I'll just post the lot.)

There's also a certain temptation to just go and post great swaths of it on ff.net, since that seems to be the one place people actually find it. (I can only think of a couple porny fics I still like anyway.)

Also, I am having one of those days when reading fic just gets me into trouble. The worse kind of trouble,* when you find something that makes the fic you're working on suddenly worthless. And I don't just mean someone had a similar idea. I'm betting the fandom's ff.net section will hit 2000 fics before Christmas and it is a very simple idea. What's getting to me is this other person took a completely different tack and made it work so brilliantly that now I just feel stupid. And to add insult to injury they did it in about 1/3rd of the words I've wasted on this thing so far.

I'll probably write it anyway. For the bit with the glaciers if nothing else. But right now I'm going to be over here banging my head on the keys and feeling like a hack.

*The better kind of trouble being when you find that no one has written what you want to read and the next thing you know you have over 10K of Rune Factory Frontier fic and growing because fandom needs moar Kross, dammit! Probably won't be posting any of it until I actually finish the game, though.

Two points of news!
First: I'm starting graduate school in about a month. It's been 2 years trying to land an entry-level job in my field. At this point I have to try attacking the career thing from a different angle or fear I'm going insane. Also it seems as I get further from my graduation date my education becomes worth less than my experience as an unskilled quality control monkey. Hahadammit...

Second: As sort of a vague 'practice what you preach' guilt from encouraging

slr2moons to post more art and such (and hopefully it works! Fingers crossed?) I'm trying to step up my own drive to actually get stuff done. Like getting something posted once every two weeks? That's the tentative goal, anyway.

Now I bring in the latest piece of the Snow+Hope AU thingy. Read previous parts here This might look like it has a plot, but I'm still denying that I have any idea what I'm doing!

I keep feeling like I'm borrowing from East of the Sun and West of the Moon. Should I be up here with an arm-waving disclaimer that Snow has pure intentions here, no really, ignore the fairy tale archetypes because we're going on a tangent any time here...

Okay, maybe I have ideas, but it's not much of a plot so far.

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I swear, one of these years I will manage to pace myself and not have to break into an all-out NaNo sprint in the last week-or-less.

On the other hand: Yaaaaay! I wins! With like an hour to go and everything!

Oh, yeah, I also broke my most words churned out in a day record. Formerly in the neighborhood of 10K, matched a handful of times but never surpassed. Today I managed over 14K.

I think most of them are still the usable kind of words, even. Though at this point I am exhausted and actually feel rather sick and still need to pack for a trip and blargity...

I still have an hour left and everything!

... someone please tell me to go pack and not try to one-up myself by trying to round that daily wordcount up to 15K.

(Oh, funny note: The program I like to write in counts hyphenated words all as one word. Nano software separates them out. This doesn't make that big a difference in the long run, but it's really nice to switch to your Nano wordcount file, find it saying you have exactly 50,000 words even, and know you can safely toss that into the Nano validation script thing because the number will go up, not down. I gained about 200 words. And then finished the scene and plugged it in again, because while 50K on the nose is shiny, getting the scene done is infinitely better.)

EDIT: Aaand I just made it to the 15K in a day mark. Because apparently I have no self control whatsoever, but at least I can sometimes make even my failures great.

Now I have proved what I can do, please excuse me so I can go keel over and never do it again. It might end me if I tried.

Well, this is a bit frustrating.

After rereading Ursula Vernon's unfinished work "Elf vs. Orc," and then reading some of Nanashi's fic in quick succession, I got bitten by the urge to write more of The Longest Night. It came out in a rather different style than what I have been trying to do for this fic.

I really wanted to try at writing something like a fairy tale. Not a happy chirpy Disney-type fairy tale (Past the Edge of the World has that covered), but one that expresses the feeling that the world is vast and unknown and dangerous beyond whatever little circle of civilization you may inhabit. Where magic is arbitrary. Where characters don't know all the rules, and the ones they don't know can and will end in death and further unpleasantness.

I love those sorts of stories. I want desperately to write one. Or several.

Instead I have something which has become far more matter-of-fact than the previous chapters. My brain is trying to ape Ursula Vernon's writing style and it needs to stop that Right Now because I am terrible at it. I would love to do dry humor, but I can't manage it consistently enough to carry a story, and more importantly it blends into this particular story about as subtly as a red baboon butt.

I'll poke at it for a few days. Maybe I'll try to rewrite it in something closer to the style I was going for. This is a very frustrating project all around. Every time I touch it I seem to come out writing it in a different style!

Finally a new chapter! I also have some little chunks of the next few chapters written, so while I know I will jinx myself if I say I want to have the next chapter out by whenever, I can promise I'm still working on it.

So many thanks are needed for my wonderful beta, slr2moons, who not only took time to help me with editing this chapter, but once again had to tell me to stop fussing over it and post already! Thanks to her, these are coming out even quicker than they would be otherwise.

Title: Heat of a Frozen Infatuation 11/? (Read previous parts here)
Pairing: Max+Kai
Warnings: Romance and some violence
Words: 6930
Teaser: Kai has something he wants to tell Max, but Max surprises him first.

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Current Mood: posting, yay!

I have been getting a lot of random Y!M messages from people I don't know. Most are obviously spam and the rest are too vague for me to have any idea who they would be from if they weren't. And one I think was a case of mistaken identity or something.

So if you're reading this and I blocked or ignored you, I'm sorry but I didn't recognize your username.

Right now I'm blocking everyone not already on my contacts list, so if you're not a spambot and want to talk to me, please send me a PM or something.

I swear everything I write for these guys turns out being hurt/comfort. XD While I was writing this I kept getting sympathy pains in the back of my head. ^^; Sorry for picking on you again, Snow... (Especially since in-game Cure heals Daze, doesn't it? But... I thought it would be funny... *hides*)

Ugh... I should probably do a RL update, but to be honest I really don't want to. Just dealing with some stupid drama at work again. Will pull through.

And now I have spent more time trying to think of a title than I did editing this. Gaaah! Working title may change if I can think of something!

Also: I have titles beginning with every letter but Q and X (not counting the Xellos/Zelgadis collection). I may need to write two fics just to remedy this problem...

Working Title: Be His Shield and He Will Fight
Warnings: Some ouchies and also hurt/comfort. Maybe spoilers but this doesn't take place at any definite point in the game
Characters: Snow and Hope
Words: 970
Summary: Snow gets injured while protecting Hope and finds himself being protected instead.

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Current Mood: groggy

Babble of a Distant Star

Real life happens, but so does Toriko fic so it's okay

Uploading finished, I think...

Miracle Train fic: Roppongi/Ryougoku

More updates and Naruto fic

The Longest Night part 3 and uploading news

This probably shouldn't exist: Fic for the KyoAni Sexy Swimming spot

Wait, is this graduate school or primary school?

Toriko fic: The Chef's Special 3/4

Rune Factory Frontier fic: Tame

Rise of the Guardians fic: An Image of Frost

Rise of the Guardians fic: Tastes of Ice

Rise of the Guardians: ficrecs

Rise of the Guardians fic: Eight Going on Eighteen part 1

Fanfic frustraions

The Longest Night part 2

Blargityyaaaaay.

Damn fickle bunnies

Beyblade fic: Heat of a Frozen Infatuation 11/?

Okay, messenger announcement time

Yet another FF13 h/c snippit

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